Sometimes you have to live through hell to understand heaven.

Post date: Jun 10, 2011 2:12:28 PM

I am still updating the site. And I am still copying all of the old posts from the old site. They are at the Archived Journal Entries page. You can find it on the right had side of your screen by clicking here: http://www.nataliebear.com/archived-journal-entries

Recently, I copied this post detailing one of many times that we thought we would lose Natalie. Only, I didn’t know about it at the time. I was recovering back at the Kohl’s house, and Jason kept it from me. He wanted me to heal. He wanted to keep me from worry while I healed.

This is Jenn. I just received a call from a very tired sounding Jason.

Natalie went back to surgery this morning due to her hepatic artery being blocked. Her liver numbers began rising, causing the need to operate to find the source of the problem. The doctors feel that the artery became blocked due to pressure from her being closed up yesterday. There is now flow through the hepatic artery, but the surgeon had to leave her "open" meaning not even her skin is stitched together. Her incision is covered with gauze. She will be left this way for 2-3 days.

Natalie has been relisted, as Status 1 (the highest lising status possible). There is no plan right now to re-transplant her, but because of the blockage, there has been some damage to the liver. How much, they don't know yet.

I cried for all that I have, for all that I have been blessed with.

I have a 7 year old daughter that is alive. I am lucky enough to be able to argue with her about clothing choices in the mornings. I am lucky enough to get to fight over hair brushing in the morning. I am blessed that I get to put ear drops in her ears for the next 6 days as she fights a nasty ear infection. I am blessed that I get to wash her laundry and feed her and tuck her in at night. Reading this post, reminded me of that. I am blessed to have her still in my life.

I am blessed with a husband that puts my interests ahead of his own. I am blessed to be married to a man who puts family first in all things. I am blessed to be married to my best friend.

PS – today is Relay for Life. Today I get to celebrate my survivor by walking around the Relay track with her. Here are the links to our pages: